I made an observation. And I've made it before. But I believed people when they kept telling me that it was bullshit.
Well I can't believe you anymore.
Any RPG that I lead/have control of is destined to fail and or die.
Original Sailor Moon RPG:
Only a month after being granted the role of GM, the place we met for it; Excite's Virtual Places; goes bankrupt and is shut down. The RPG fades with no way to play anymore. Attempts to gather all the old players to try out Voodoo Chat fails and the RPG eventually is forgotten.
Sailor Moon RPG Revived - Shadow of the Moon:
Taking months to open, but lots of expressed interest, the old players didn't respond. Only two returned to attempt "Post-Based RP" and it was going well for.... about.... 3 months, maybe... net issues and such kept me from keeping it going, but people stuck around... Eventually, the game died and I didn't bother moving it to the new PHP Boards like DDT has.
Rockman.EXE: Uplink:
This game has gone the way of SOTM. Though Graham was officially GM, I created the board and I initiated it. I also decided that since Graham didn't seem to pay much attention and I knew as much of the plot as he did/does if not more, that I would make sure to keep up with it and essentially GM it for him. With Cam's help. It has gone for nearly two months without posts. I even decided about a month ago that what killed Altered Destiny could possibly be why the lack of posts on Uplink is occurring. I posted an Announcement that the plot threads are not the sole areas allowed to be posted in and even began a non-plot intense thread in Downtown Enzanki. It's garnered no response and not even the General Discussion Channel has any action. There are no applications, no new members, no new POSTS.
Looking around, I realize that it's possibly just a bad time... Since DDT is also sorta slow on posts.
But DDT isn't doomed to failure. There is no darkness that breeds death. It's been around for over 4 years now and still has a following. Still has interest. I truly believe that's Cam-niisan's doing and I only wish I had a 1/4 of his talent to pull off GMing. I wish I knew why people believed I did when everything I'm put in charge of has gone to hell even when I did my damnedest to keep it going. I have great ideas. I have plots. Trouble is having people to play them out.
Cam, I accepted your offer, I won't back out. I'm not dropping it. But I'm fearful to do anything on it despite the fact I believe I have about half if not 3/4 of it just by rearranging the ideas I had for serious plot before.
It's just that after checking on Uplink and realizing all of this, I'm scared.
And no, I don't know why I posted this, really. I guess because the only home I have is here.
I ain't quitting this RPG. I don't think I could ever leave. I know I haven't posted much and in fact look to have vanished. I may go for a while without posting, but I do still keep active as much as I can. I have no major excuses for it except lack of ability to make a post.
"
When life hands you lemons, make lemonade. Then go look for someone whose life has handed them vodka and go have a party."
(-Heard on Comedy Central. I forget who it was.)
Jess